I replay the last three years over in my head a lot, taking me back to my first race where everything started. It was the best thing that could have happened to me. But, I still have doubts, wondering if I started too late? Other girls had been racing since they could walk, so I had a lot of catching up to do. I ponder whether it's still possible to reach the top. I could sit, slouch around and stress about it all day... but I'd rather go training. I've realised that there is no point worrying, there is no point in looking at the past. I just need to do the right thing now. Therefore, I have chosen to start my "new" life now, with the start of my gap year.
I have finished A levels after a stressful couple of years of exams. These now behind me, I feel I can start fresh, and focus on one thing only - being a cyclist. I'm going to 'hopefully' get a job, but almost be full-time training with the help and support of Maddie Horton, from Fully Sussed Mountain Biking Academy. Whether I get to the top or not, at least I'll know I've tried.
I came 6th at the last Nationals at Margam Park and to be honest I was not happy. I want to be better! I won't forget this race, I take it all as experience. I'll file it in memories of my old life. I'm moving forward and I hope that the only way is up (although I do rather like down hills as well).